Seems like when my daughter-in-law in having a go to pieces I am able to pull myself above the situation and talk to her and listen and get things sort of in perspective.  After I do that though I feel like all the wind has been taken out of me.  My 3 grandkids that live here in Indiana are gone with other grandparents this evening and my oldest granddaughter has gone home to Arkansas and I can't get her on the phone right now.  I am at a complete loss as to what to do with myself right now.  I'm just not sure how to put my life back together when there is such a huge part of it missing.  I am so thankful for the time I had with my son and the fact that we had such a wonderful relationship.  Life is just not normal anymore and I'm not sure it ever will be again.  I'm just so very sad for all of us.  Thank you Lord for continuing to hold my hand through this tragic time.