---update---- I have not been doing that great, and i felt it would be hypocritical for me to post anything on here, considering i wanted to pretend that all was well. I had a really rough time last week, and i am struggling to gather the remnants of it still. My mother has stopped me from working out, and i can feel the fat just creeping onto my body.. so this week and part of next.. i am doing a water fast.My weight has gone up.. i am now 81 lbs. Here is the dichotomy with this disorder..you lose weight thinking that you will look/feel better.. but i find myself having to hide my body more than ever..strange... ! I got a job as a research specialist at a consulting firm.. my cousin happens to be in the same office as i am.. She told me that some people were asking her if i had a problem, and that i would be gorgeous with some weight on me.---NO--- i honestly think that i could be perfectly fine maintaining in the 80's range.hopefully first lady can speak a prophetic utterance or something from her phd to jump start something in me, i am yet hopefull, but it is slowly dwindling. I did call mirasol ( mama khodem !!) and i hung up the phone after about the second ring. But i will keep the faith and continue to trust that "faith doesn't make things easy..just possible.."
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