wow !! i am fresh off the heels of clicking the send button in an email to the pastor's wife/psychologist. In this moment, i would seriously be open to a breaking and entering charge, and go delete her mail.. ( lol). I haven't been doing great with my eating, i have been on a strict 140 calorie a day plan. My best friend is in town from north carolina, and when we met up at the coffee shop, she kept looking at me really weird, and i asked her why she was staring, she said " you are too thin, i mean you look like a bobblehead." WHY CAN'T I SEE WHAT EVERYONE ELSE SEES? WHEN I LOOK IN THE MIRROR, I SEE THAT I NEED TO LOSE 10 LBS. WHILE EVERYONE ELSE SEES A TOO THIN PERSON?
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I wish I could answer that question for you. If I could, then I could cure eating disorders! *hug* I\'m proud of you for sending that email. I know it sucks, but keep opening up, hun. I know it makes you uncomfortable, but it will open the door to recovery. *hug again*
Its called anorexia! so hard to change the thinking!!!! big hugs!
wow - thats a huge thing to send that email. but remember that she is the pastors wife/psychologist and you can trust her. she is there to help you , not to hinder and she will listen and not judge anything you say - so keep the lines of communication open. its a long road but you can get better. i know you can.
and on the issue of self image. no one really knows why that happens. why some people can get so thin and still not see it = i suppose its just part of the disease, beccause its about the mind and not really the food - or lack of - at all.try to stay positive though.
ltos of love
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Wouldn\'t it be cool to find a healthy weight and know how many calories your body needs to stay there. I am only 5\'2\" had a test done and found that I burn 1,200 calories without doing anything. That I need 1,550 calories just to keep my weight. I\'ve been recovered a long time. Restricting is going to mess up your bodies metabolism rate and it will take a long time to get it back on tract. 140 Calories, I\'m surprised you have any energy. You need to seriously start checking out the recovery center. I\'d hate to see you continue to lose yourself to the eating disorder!
hugs, khodem