I had a minor slip up today, but i am committed to starting fresh tommorrow. I got up and made myself my two waffle and grape jam special, and i watched television while eating that. When i was finished with that, i was so hungary, that i ate two blueberry muffins. I ended up purging, and then going out for a run..note to self never purge and then think that you can run.. i seriously almost collapsed.I felt the need to do it again later, so i just started power cleaning my house. If it existed, i cleaned it LOL !! i am going to do better tommorow. I am also going to make an appointment with my doctor, and make sure i am okay, because physically it has been just as hard as it has been emotionally, and i need to stop lying to myself and find out  any sort of damage that i have caused. The only thing is, i am so ashamed to talk honestly with her, i don't want her looking at me like some type of crazy person, or i just envision her cracking up laughing at me. I don't know why, i just have that thought.I am giving it my all trying to do this on my own. I somehow think that i can turn it around by myself, i don't know if i am fooling myself or what, but something just started telling me that i can do this, i don't need a professional, i am strong enough to work this out. I hope so. I truly hope so.