Yay for me, i had a major victory today. I ate and i did not purge. I made a "baptist church dinner" fried chicken strips, spaghetti, and garlic bread. I couldn't bring myself to eat what i cooked, but i did make myself two blueberry waffles. I ate them with only a smidge of grape jam on it total for the day 240 cals. ... that is a lot for me..especially keeping it down.I am happy and optimistic for tommorow. I think i will just have the same. I am starting to feel dizzy, but i am confused because i ate today. It is weird, when i don't eat, i feel airy, and light headed, but not a dizzy feeling, and since i ate, i cannot see straight. Of course this could also be due to the fact that i can't find my reading glasses..lol.I am still trying to find out if my mother was joking about putting me into a treatment center..I HOPE SO.. i don't need to be inpatient, i just need to go to therapy. I need to do something that allows me not to gain weight, but start eating without feeling the need to purge. I am counting today as a stepping stone, and hope for more days of the like.