Yay !! power shopping today was quite fun actually. The only bad thing about that, is the fact that it only fueled the eating disorder voice in my head. I had a thrill getting all of these size 0 pants, and in one store, i had to even get a 00. My dad and my two sisters and i went to perkins for breakfast, i told them that i was going to wait until we went to starbucks to eat, but they forced me, so i shared a breakfast wrap with my sister.. i cut a tiny piece off and told them it tasted like plastic and had the waitress remove it.. i just couldn't deal with that much food, especially if i was going to have starbucks and i was going to have to get a pastry.My dad did not load my starbucks card, because he said that if he did that i would use that as an excuse to not eat. He is right, but at least he took me to starbucks today, and i got a pastry with my frappuccino.. lite of course !!  Now i am going to be full for the rest of the day.I stepped on the scale, and it said 89, i flipped out. I was just 88 yesterday- I looked up  the bmi and proper weight for someone 5'0, and it said i should weigh at least 105..HELL NO. apparently my bmi is low as well.. 18.5 or below is underweight, and mine is 17.5.. not that bad though.something has got to give, i am between a rock and a hard place, i just feel like just saying screw it and just continue on losing weight, i mean i am in the 80's range, so why stop when i am so close to my goal? but there is another part of me, that just wants this insanity gone out of my life forever..