Okay, where to start, i am in one of my " desperate housewife" modes. All of my friends tell me that i am practically bree vand de kamp. I cooked breakfast for my family this morning, i made sausage, eggs, and banana nut muffins...from scratch..not that jiffy stuff!! ( p.s. i use jiffy but not today)I am such a dork, that i arranged the muffins on the presentation dish..in the hairstyle of former and soon to have her job back ukrainian prime-minister..Yulia Tymoshenko!!! i had a great morning. I did not eat any breakfast, because i am going to starbucks later, and i am going to have a peanut blondie bar with my coffee...tres chic!I have decided that i am going to get back to employing the forces of positivity. I had been doing so for some time, but i just neglected it this week, but it was so rough. I do find that positive thinking and shifting my thoughts is working in other areas. I see just how negative my mother actually is, i mean i cannot believe half the things she says..and now i tell her " you know mom, what about thinking about it like this, or just give her/him the benefit of the doubt versus jumping to asenine conclusions.!! I just never realized it before, because i was right there with her in the negative department ..aisle 7 (lol) Big thankyou to cyndi, you are amazing and awesome, and your words of wisdom and love have gotten me through the things that i thought would break me. You have become one of my greatest cheerleaders and supporters, and i am glad to have you on team Kay!!! ( i shall reciprocate and join team Cyndi!!) today shall be a good day, the sun is shining, and my cousins are over. They are here everyday while my aunt is at work, but i always isolate and stay in my room. I think i am going to take all of the kids to the park, and enjoy the sunshine..especially since it has been raining all week.
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*blush* Well thanks! I am so happy to help you in any way. I thin you are a lovely person (inside AND out!) and I am happy to hear that my pitiful little posts can help you in any way whatsoever. I am expecting big things from you!
You know, now that you have realized that your mom is a negative person... that could be a HUGE breakthrough! I mean, maybe that plays into your mind set, and your inability to see how lovely and worthy you truly are! Not necessarily because your mom treats you like you aren\'t worthy... . but maybe because her negative thinking rubbed off on you and made you see the world, and especially yourself, in the same manner. Wow. That really is momentous! Our perceptions play such a huge part in our lives. Not just how we see the world, but how we interact with it.
And the thing is -- we can get really locked into thinking in a certain way! I know this from experience, because I used to have obsessive thoughts about death. Luckily my therapist helped me understand and overcome those horrible thoughts. She said that it\'s like when you lose a tooth, and your tongue keeps going back to that empty place in your mouth. Well, your mind does the same thing. It finds a thought -- be it good or bad -- and keeps going back to it. It becomes a habit. And it takes hard work to break a habit -- but it CAN be done! Now you just have to start working on breaking your habit of negative thinking! :)
I am very hopeful for you. SO happy to hear that you have had a breakthrough!