Okay, so i tried to be normal yesterday, and i just could not do it. My sisters and cousins got dropped off at the local craigs cruisers ( indoor/ outdoor go carts) and my other cousin and her daughter and my mom and i went to denny's....yuck.Oh my gosh i wanted to die. I had this voice saying just get a shake and it'll be okay. I had this "recovery voice" saying just get what you want and go for it. i ended up with a burger and fries. My mom got a burger and fries and my cousin ( who is kind of large) got a salad.I ate all of my burger, because i figured i can just go purge afterward, but then my mom goes... "let's go shopping." HELL NO! i had to walk around the store looking like a fat ass, but i did make sure they were pre-occupied and snuck off to purge. I am not eating for 2 wks. to make up for that mistake. it shall never happen again, I felt like i was going to die.I feel a lot better today since i am empty.
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Kay, I know you know this is NOT a good thing! That\'s your illness, telling you it\'s better to be \"empty\". I don\'t blame you for not wanting to eat a burger.. I mean I don\'t eat red meat very often and I don\'t really like fast food anyway... But honey you need to make a healthy food choice and keep it inside you. *hug* Keep trying to listen to that recovery voice. I am proud of you for TRYING.