Wow! it has been a real roller coaster for me. My sisters and i went to stay the night at my aunts house, and we played and played with my cousins ( and yes this is the same aunt i discussed my ed with) I had alot of fun, and it cleared my head The hardest part, was meals. She made all of the kids' plates, and then she made mine. The good part was she let the children eat in the formal dining room, and we ate at the kitchen island. She helped me through it, kicking and screaming. I completely had a melt down, because i weighed myself afterward, and i was 2 lbs. heavier. I still want to weigh 80 though. She told me that the next step will be for me to talk to my parents, and she said she would come with me. Since she is the vp of human resources for my college, she told me that when you need to break sensitive news to people, you should do it in public, to minimize "craziness". I think i am on the path to recovery this time!!