Today I had my first pre-op melt down. I am afraid of losing my food. You see I live to eat not eat to live and frankly it scares the hell out of me not knowing how I will feel after surgery. It's like saying good-bye to an old friend. I want the surgery to become healthy and to not suffer the ill effects of being a diabetic, and hopefully I will not get heart disease or cancer, they all run in my family. My daughter was married last year and I hopefully will become a grandma in a couple of years. My son is in college and I'd like to be able to hike a mountain with him after I am healed. I have lost 12 lbs and have been working out and am able to walk around much better than I did.  I want to follow the directions of my Dr, so I won't suffer any ill effects from the surgery. I need encouragementKathy1