struggling
I am still struggling so much with what I did. OM is not out of the picture since he has been shadowing me when I am in his area working. H sent him an e-mail again threatening a restraining order if he doesn't knock it off. I am not upset with him. He is hurting bad just like all of us but he needs to find a way to get on with life.
Today was a grieving and remorse day. I worked alone for almost 11 hrs today and I bawled repeatedly. So sad. So remorseful. so much pain. My eyes still burn and it is easy for me to start up again. H has been wonderful. So loving and supportive. Going on 5 mos since DDAY. When will this get easier? I know. It takes longer than this but some days I feel like I am going backwards.
Off to the gym now with H. The hot tub always makes things better. :-)
Today was a grieving and remorse day. I worked alone for almost 11 hrs today and I bawled repeatedly. So sad. So remorseful. so much pain. My eyes still burn and it is easy for me to start up again. H has been wonderful. So loving and supportive. Going on 5 mos since DDAY. When will this get easier? I know. It takes longer than this but some days I feel like I am going backwards.
Off to the gym now with H. The hot tub always makes things better. :-)
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