I am feeling strange but remarkably upbeat these days.  Part of it is that I'm excercising more, and part of it seems due to new relationships bringing a smile to my face.  I am in a terrible place financially, but I know that I must have and maintain a positive attitude toward the future.  And my new girlfriend is making me happy and is prodding me from a business standpoint.  It is said that, "when the student is ready, the teacher appears".  Maybe that's happening to me.