I'm a bit anxious about our 'Disneyland trip' this month.  The irony of it is that it was my nieces idea and that was the trip that seperated us in 1992!  I want to meet her kids and definitely want to see my nephew.  And my other nieces boyfriend.  And my nephews wife.  But I'm not sure I'm level enough in my head for it all.  I've been incredibly emotional lately (i'm sure menopause has nothing to do with that!) I cry at stupid stuff and have been real quick to temper lately.  More so than normal.  I'm afraid that this time more than others I'm going to ruin things.  There are a lot of reasons for me to go but I know me and that is a good reason not to!