geez.......

....the pain has graduated from "just pain" to "pain with bloody stools or stools with a green tint".  it has been completely dismissed by dr's, stating that "it had to be something you ate".
REALLY!?! ....give me a freaking break.....now what do i do....keeping praying for death?  because GOD knows that if i ask for any type of pain relief, i will be accused of "drug seeking".   uh yeah....captain obvious.....i am looking for some pain relief, which may or may not include drugs.
i did not do this to myself....i came to you "the doctor" for help. you threw me into this position.....why do i have to pay for your mistake?
now what are my options??