good morning to all my friends and thanks so much for taking the time to read my sometimes senseless rambling of uselesses and hopelesses and the despair that i feel most days. my 25 year old nephew came down last night (i haven't seen him since kellys funeral) to inform me that he got arrested and  is being charged with involuntary manslaughter for my sons death. i don't even know how to feel right now. there was a time when i was angry with them that i thought that this is what i wanted but now that it's happened it only brings me sadness because when i look at pete i still see that little blonde hair blue eyed boy that i loved so much as a child and now it seems that his life is also being ruined by this tragedy-when does it stop-so many emotions to deal with but on the other hand i still haven't let them off the hook completely because last night at work i was thinking if pete does have to do jail time i would go visit him and i know in my heart if it was kelly he'd sit and rot there before they came to visit him -i guess i just expect to much from all of them and they're never going to give it to me -so anyways he has a pretrial hearing oct 15 so we'll see where this goes.