i want my life back they way it was before june 17th , when i would be at work and wonder what the kids were doing and making plans together for our next days off together. when i would show everyone my pictures of my kids and tell everyone about how they went to college and what their plans were for the future and day dream about my grandkids and think to myself my life is good and i've been so blessed where did that life go? it ended on june 17 and got worse on the 21 when i buried him.  chels went back to work yesterday . i don't know how her first day back was because i'm working the weekend also. probate court went ok. sad but ok . i showed the magistrate pictures of kelly. god i miss him.