i just got home from work boy am i tired i was looking at a page on what heaven is like it was nice. i thought about going by the cemetery this morning but i am to tired and i have to go back out tonight -i haven't been over there since june 17 i don't like to go it brings me no comfort. i have only been to my dad's once and he died in 05 i don't like cemeteries they just bring me sadness but i find myself wanting to go see kelly. i thought to myself too i can never move away because he is here and i'll feel like i'm leaving him. i was busy last night at work so less time to think which is good. i talked to kelly alot last night and for some reason he feels closer to me.i wish i could touch him and i still miss him so much he could give the best hugs and his smile lit up a room and made you feel wonderful. i was blessed to have such a wonderful son even if i only had him for 19 years.well i'm really sleepy so gotta go.it still feels like everyone has just forgotten about kelly and went back to their ordinary life. no one in my family calls or they don't talk about him because they don't want to cry well hello we should cry we loved him i'm not going to stop talking about him ever.i read a journal and i was in a hurry so i didn't really have time to get the whole story but her name is sorrow and i think she lost 2 sons i can't even imagine i sent her a message but she is probably so down she can't even write how can that happen it's terrible.
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I am so very sorry that you too are going through this nightmare. I would love to get to know you and be of some comfort to you. I can always use another wonderful friend to help me on my journey. I have to remind myself that Kala is NOT at the cememtery. Her body was buried there and I go to check on flowers, cards, letters that have been left for her. I do not go to be \"with\" Kala. Kala is with me every moment of everyday. She goes with me, I do not go visit her. The only time Kala is at the cemetery is when I take her, or her friends take her, because we are there she is there. Please message/chat me anytime.
Living to make Kala proud,
Teri
BOY DO I EVER KNOW WHAT UR SAYING**EVERY ONE HAS FORGOTTEN ...NO BODY CALLS,,NOBODY WANTS TO TALK ABOUT IT....THIS ALSO BRINGS ME TO TEARS COS THIS IS WHAT IM DEALING WITH MYSELF....YES(I DEAL WITH IT MYSELF)..**WALKING WITH YOU..LOVE YOU DIANA(CODYS MOM)
I agree with Teri. I don\'t go either. Jake is not there, his suit is there. He is not. As for moving though, yes I too have the same thought but my husband promises we will just take him with us should we ever decide to move. Funny, I don\'t go to where his suit is yet if I were to move I need to take it with me. Lots of hugs, Jake\'s mom, kathy
I also agree with Teri and Kathy. I go because I want to make sure the flowers are taken care of the things that his friends have left him are all ok and when I need to escape from everyone and everything. I picked this spot at my father-in-law\'s insistance that we needed plots, never for the life of me could I have imagined that my darling son would be placed here(it is an incredibly beautiful spot)beside his Grandfather. Erick is with me always in everything and everywhere I go... he guides me through my days. I didn\'t go in the beginning because it caused me more grief but then I remembered all the times that our family would go out to see my husband when he was working on others loved ones plots and we would wander around and tidy up or just read to each other the names of people. It wasn\'t sad it was a time of peace, family and communication. I just never thought that I would have to communicate with Erick this way. Hugs, Vera Erick\'s mom