I woke up feeling so bad today. I am sitting in the living room and if I even move my head a little everything keeps moving. around me. It's like a special affect in a movie. It scares me of course but I do my best to try to stay calm. I walk around to try to calm things down. Sometimes it helps sometimes it doesn't. The weather is strange today. Cold, slightly windy and cloudy. I know that bad weather makes things worse sometimes. What kind of life is this supposed to be? Last night I couldn't sleep. My mind was wondering off on how things use to be. I remember when I use to get good paychecks and I use to be able to help my family out. I remember when I use to make good money and I use to be able to be ahead of my bills. I think, if I were to win the lottery I could help everyone. Then, I started thinking,,,even if I were to win the lottery, I would still be dizzy. I would still feel awful. Not even money could make this dizziness go away. What kind of life would that be? That’s one thing about this disease, it doesn't care if you have money or not. I have heard that in some people this goes away completely, am I going to be one of those lucky ones? Luck? I have faith that God doesn’t give us more than we can't handle. I have faith that he will give me the strength to get through this all. I have faith! I never give up faith! That's all I have left in me these days!