I am so greatful to have my son and his wife here! I can not say that enough! I have been really struggling missing Tony. My depression has just been acting up, I was sitting in my room crying and my grandbaby came up yelling, "I love you grandma!" How foolish I have been! I have so much to be happy for! She is so precious and its like God is talking to me through her! He keeps telling me, "keep your chin up, I am her!". How silly I can be! This is a tough thing to go through, I wont lie, but the Lord has blessed me with wonderful family and an awesome friend who love me and care for me so much! I am not alone. I have somewhere to come and vent! People who understand what I am going through! I think that is the biggest factor of all! I am not crazy, I am not loosing my mind, you all know exactly what I am going through! Thank you all! Thank you all for letting me vent, thank you all for understanding!