18 Month Update
Well, we've made it officially now 1.5 years since dday. I don't have a lot more to add than what I've said in the past. We have progressed along well, and we are closer than ever. That said, the loss is still there. I think I said in one of the threads that the three most traumatic times in my life involve some form of infidelity. One is when my mom came to us as kids (I was about 8 at the time, my brothers all younger) and told us tomorrow we were getting a new daddy. What we didn't know then is my mom had been cheating on my dad, and she was one of the few that actually divorced my dad and married the OM. Two was the day my brother revealed we were being molested by one of my step-dad's employees, in front of everyone including the perpetrator He tried to kill himself by wrapping a chord around his neck and pulling until he passed out. I didn't know he couldn't kill himself that way, and ran to where I couldn't see him and felt so sick in my stomach. In essence, he was cheating on his wife with kids. And then of course, 18 months ago, finding out my wife was having sex with another man.
The loss was great, but despite that, God has helped us to bring good out of the evil. And it has not destroyed us. And in some ways we are better than we were before, closer than we were before. We don't take each other for granted like we did before. I have the wife I wanted when we married, and she has the husband she wanted. I hate it took an affair to shake us up enough to get here, but I'm glad we are here, even if I wished we'd taken a less painful route to get to this point.
One positive note I have to add involves my writing. Until this month, I've not written a lot of fiction. Some non-fiction stuff, and edited books I already had, and got them published. But I've not written but about 2 or three short stories/flash fictions since dday, and certainly no novels. Well, 1.5 years, I'm currently writing a novel that I've just written over 20K words. And I'm enjoying it, and it feels good to write one again. I was beginning to wonder if I'd ever get back to it.
Oddly enough, though, my novel has some "infidelity" in it. Cathartic, maybe? I'm still in the middle of writing the novel. What should I do with the offenders? ;)
The loss was great, but despite that, God has helped us to bring good out of the evil. And it has not destroyed us. And in some ways we are better than we were before, closer than we were before. We don't take each other for granted like we did before. I have the wife I wanted when we married, and she has the husband she wanted. I hate it took an affair to shake us up enough to get here, but I'm glad we are here, even if I wished we'd taken a less painful route to get to this point.
One positive note I have to add involves my writing. Until this month, I've not written a lot of fiction. Some non-fiction stuff, and edited books I already had, and got them published. But I've not written but about 2 or three short stories/flash fictions since dday, and certainly no novels. Well, 1.5 years, I'm currently writing a novel that I've just written over 20K words. And I'm enjoying it, and it feels good to write one again. I was beginning to wonder if I'd ever get back to it.
Oddly enough, though, my novel has some "infidelity" in it. Cathartic, maybe? I'm still in the middle of writing the novel. What should I do with the offenders? ;)
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