Hi everyone! Sorry I haven't writin in so long, things with me have been absolutly crazy! I have been going through a lot! My best friend and I got in some trouble with the cops and now not only do I have to deal with them, I have to deal with the fact that they might take my bf away for a long time! I'm with her everyday and don't have any idea what I will do without her! They are threatening to put her in jail for a year when shes not even 18 yet! I'm freaking out! If they do, it will be like her dying for me! Me well I finaly got a real good job at a nursing home facility and I love it! I'm not going to school though at the moment, hoping to go back on Monday! I'm just a complete mess though. My mom doesn't lik me very much because I'm choosing to party and be with friends rather then doning my treatments PERFECT! Don't get me wrong I'm doing them and my meds but I could be doing better with them! My mom, because I've made BAD choices, she's making me pay for pretty much everything except for my meds! I'm moving out when I'm 18 and getting an appartment with a friend. I don't understand why it is that I would be rather partying EVERY night then being home gettin good sleep and good treatments! It's startin to piss me off! But it's like I feel like I'm goin to miss something amazing if I go home! I don't know but something has to changed and it has to happen soon! I feel a little better venting things! Man this place is a good place to clean out whats on your mind! I hope the bad desisions I've made doesn't effect me to bad in the long run, I know they will tho! I hope my mom can love me as much as she used to! I hope I can keep this great job I have! Love you all! Thanks for listening! With love, Megan!
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I don\'t think that your Mom will ever loose her love for you...No matter what you have done..I know that sometimes everybody messes up...but you need to think about your health...Your Mama loves you and wants the best for you..you may think sometimes that she is too hard on you...but it is only for your good..I know that when Wyatt gets older he will probably not want to do his treatments and stuff but I hope that he will never stop..You know you can have a good time and still take care of yourself...Keep it a part of your everyday life that way it won\'t feel like there is something that you just dread to do...it only takes a few minutes to do your treatments and then you will have the rest of the day to do what you WANT!!! Remember you will miss everything if you stop taking care of yourself if you end up the hospital or something...
Awww..... I am so sorry that you are having troubles! I really hope your friend doesn\'t go to jail. Tell her to get a lawyer, because when my brother got into trouble with the law, the cops screwed him over BIG (and they will...)
I\'m sure you want to hang out with your friends and party all of the time because you\'re a teenager!! But Amy is right, if you don\'t take care of yourself, you\'ll miss it all because you\'ll be in the hospital!! Rich went thru something similar when he was in high school... too busy partying or getting high to worry about taking care of himself... it\'s taken a huge toll on his body! He was in the hospital like 3 or 4 times over the summer! He has no good veins left in his arms.
I would like to think that your mother would never stop loving you, despite the decisions you make! I know mine still loves me even tho I act like an ass... Don\'t be too fast to high tail out of your mom\'s house.... she\'s not making you do these things because she hates you, there is a lesson to be learned from all of this you know...
Amy\'s right again, try to do your treatments first, so that you have time to do the things that you want to do... but we all have to do things that we don\'t want to do, but they have to be done... it takes discipline and courage to do what you guys do on a regular basis. I don\'t envy it at all, but I admire you for doing it!! I also applaud you for knowing that something needs to change. I had a teacher once that told me you were half way there to fixing the problem, once you could identify it and admit it.
Keep the faith! It will get better!!
Hey girly,
I know how you feel. I was diagnosed at the age of 14 and had no idea how to even say Cystic Fibrosis. And I was getting sick alot in high school and I would rather hang out with my friends and party and not even think of doing my treatment cause I felt like I was differnt then my friends.
So I was always out and about and not listening to my parents and believe me, It caught up with me later on. I would get so sick and be in the hospital and hooked up to the IV\'s then I would come home and go back to my old habits.
Now sorry to say that now Im a mom and an adult looking back at the shit I put my parents thru and my health I would do it all over and take care of myself just like the doctors and my parents would tell me everyday..
It\'s not worth it. Please take the time for yourself and do what your body needs you to do. Your friends should understand what you are going thru and if they dont you dont need them.
My friends understand me and they dont care that I have to do a treatment before we go out or I have to go to the doctors again. I just did the Great Strides walk and I was amazed by how many friends and family showed there support for my brother and I.
Cause when you get older it\'s not any easier. I struggle everyday with CF and I hate the fact that I can not breathe to play all day with my boys and do what every other mom can do.. I have had the picc line so many times that my veins are shot.
I have to pop pills everyday, hooked up to the nebulizer and inhaler and it\'s part of having CF..
I hope you will understand that it\'s not easy for your mom. She cares alot for you and wants the best for you and of course your health...