Well I would like to have the courage to sing at my uncle funeral but I have went from shy to unsecure and scared. I wrote a entry Sat about how I felt if my talents would of ben giudedwhen i was younger.
Basically what I was saying is when I was younger I heard this sound come out of me that sound so beautiful. I didn't know I was singing I just knew I could make beautiful sounds. My mom was the only person who knew I could sing and was very happy that I has a voice. She would always tell me God has blessed me with a talent cuz I didn't get singing from her or her side of the family. I didnt know what that statment ment but I felt good hearing it.
On Sat I remeber waking up on time to catch this program called Kids Incorperated and also Star search. I always ask my mom if she could get me on there, she would smile and tell me yeah she would. I knew it wouldn't happen but I always kept my hopes up.
As I got older I discovered diffrent good things about my voice, how to harmonize, hit high notes and a little voice gymnastics.
I also notice that I had a fear for sing ing in front of anyone except my mom. I found some of my friends could sing in school and at lunch time we would meet up and sing some of our favorite songs. We would determine who had what verse and change some notes around. After others discovred I could sing, word got around and others wanted to hear me. I would only sing if I had someone singing with me.
THere was always the girls that couldn't sing and got jealous when I would sing and would make statments that I was showing off. that made me feel real uneasy b/c I didn't want the attention anyway and for them to say that just made it even harder for me to sing.
This is part 1