How can I control something that no one can control except God which is death. I know I wouldn't trip so hard if I could make arrangments on how,when and where I would want to die. If I could have it my way, I would want me and everyone I love to die of old old old age. I know I can't have it that way b/c when it's your time it your time.
I fear everyday of death. I fear that something will happen to my Baby,Boyfriend,Mama and Dad. I Fear that something will happen to me and I want be here for my son, to see him grow into a man. I sometimes can't funtion, I just get overwhelmed with these thoughts and it makes me depressed,sad and worried. I pray and ask God to help me He does but after a while I find myself back in the same state. I'm scared on the reason being no one knows when our time is coming. I just hope that God will allow me to see my son grow up into a man.
Til next time
always me
I fear everyday of death. I fear that something will happen to my Baby,Boyfriend,Mama and Dad. I Fear that something will happen to me and I want be here for my son, to see him grow into a man. I sometimes can't funtion, I just get overwhelmed with these thoughts and it makes me depressed,sad and worried. I pray and ask God to help me He does but after a while I find myself back in the same state. I'm scared on the reason being no one knows when our time is coming. I just hope that God will allow me to see my son grow up into a man.
Til next time
always me
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You sound just like me, after I had my daughter, I don\'t know if it was post partum blues or just me being protective over another life. But I was so scared to go to work, do anything! I finally got over the every minute fear that someone I love is going to die, but I still think of it constantly. Please for me just know that it takes awhile to get over and I still have the thoughts every so often, but it always makes me feel bad, so I try really hard to just enjoy EVERY minute with your children, because those are minutes your never going to get back. And should anything happen they will have those wonderful memories. Good LUck honey and hang in there. Life it too precious to waste, we all know that now!
it\'s hard to think that you might miss out on part of your child\'s life, but just think of how many minutes and hours you are spending worrying. all those minutes and hours add up, and that is time you could be enjoying with your boy. you have no control over when you will leave this earth, so make the most of the time! my dad died when I was nine, and i wish he had spent more time with me, rather than at work, etc. I\'ll bet he thought he had all the time in the world to be with me. so if you treat every day like it is precious time, then you are doing everything you can.