Hello I guess i can say I feel ok today. Me and my boyfriend had a long talk and we just let each other talked while each other listen. I told how i felt about feeling alone during the m/c and he told me how he felt like he was trying to be here but he didn't know really what to do b/c he was afraid he wouldn't give me enough space and then he was afraid on giving me to much. I guess I can understand b/c my moods change so drastically. I'm still feeling sad b/c I wanted my baby and I wanted my son to have a little sis/bro. But as always Gods does everything for a reason even if we don't understand. I just pray that he let me have at least three more kids befor i get to old. I'm 31 now and will be 32 soon and when I'm 35 i want to be done with having kids. But them again I know I can't be choosey.

Well I end today entry with saying I'm feeling ok for now don't how long that will last but I how ever I'll be back soon.