This my 1st entry. I guess I'm writing this to get a couple things off my chest. First off, I am feeling alone. I have felt this for a very long time. Even tho I talk with people online and over the phone, I still feel alone. I never really had someone I could visit and hang out with. I want some human contact. I want to go out and be able to do things with other people, but most of the time I am in my room at home. All thru school as far back as I can remember people have always made fun of me and teased me. I was always told I was ugly, stupid and won't amount to anything in life. Because of that I never had any self-esteem and confidence. Never really had any friends and never had a girlfriend because I think they didn't want to be associated with someone as low as me. Basically I just want to give everyone the finger and go somewhere I can be alone and not have to worry about anyone else.