well i have set my next goal......day 400.  sounds like a well rounded figure.  this is actually getting easier.  i do have moments where i wish i could crawl away and hide behind the alcohol but they are now few and far between.  i am learning to "cope or deal" differently than i used to.  i am still learning actually since i am still tested on a daily basis.   i think i have many "addictions" in my life, some are great lol, some not so great and others just down right destructive.  i am beginning  to sort these things out as well as i can and work on them, ridding myself of destructive obsessions. difficult but time.  cleaning out the closet so to speak.  seems some days i have these ah ha moments and see things in perspective then there are the days i feel like its all falling apart.  the one thing i do know is i will not turn to alcohol today.  sad part is i cant make promises about tomorrow and i guess that is why we go day to day with this disease. i am still trying to get motivated and stop being so damn lazy.  i seem to be a procrastinator and i have all these ideas and goals i want to succeed at and i just cant seem to get motivated or keep motivated.  i am finding that to be such a disappointment in myself.   i am obsessing about my weight now.  everyday.  seems like i have taken a new addition and replaced the old one.  damnit.  is it normal?  what is normal?  is this what an alcoholics mind does?  it sucks.