i found out someone very close to me is dying.  in the hospital and being so far away i have no idea how he is doing.  i have been so close to him for so long and i dont know how to cope with this.  his family say they dont know if it will be now but for sure within the year.  i am so sad.  i just dont know how to cope with this.  i am beside myself.  i can feel my heart breaking and i cant stop it.  i wish it were me.