i found out someone very close to me is dying. in the hospital and being so far away i have no idea how he is doing. i have been so close to him for so long and i dont know how to cope with this. his family say they dont know if it will be now but for sure within the year. i am so sad. i just dont know how to cope with this. i am beside myself. i can feel my heart breaking and i cant stop it. i wish it were me.