i think i am in awe of myself.  how arrogant is that lol.   it is almost 1 year i have been sober and a year ago i never would have guessed i could do this.  physically i am doing well.  mentally i am still struggling.  thing is i dont think it is the sobriety i am struggling with, it's life.  coping.  changing.   i am trying to be a new me, find myself at 47.  go figure!!! guess it's time to grow up.  the things i am interested in i should have done in my 20's like i had wanted to.  well screw it right.  i will jump into my creativity now and pick up where i left off before alcoholism took me away.   shouldnt i be happy?