i seem to pass through life as if i am a blind woman in a forest. feeling lonely and lost, trying to find my way out of this state of limbo i find myself living in. waking each day and facing it, i find myself seeing my life as surreal as a salvadore dali painting. i am only an actor in a play, yet everyone around me seems to be living, totally unaware of how i feel or percieve things. i have two lives, and it's the secret one that pushes me to the point of insanity. constantly pulling at me and leaving me in a state of anxiety and heartache. it wasnt supposed to be this way. what started out with hope, dreams and goals has ended up hopeless, broken and dying. i am fighting two battles and if i lose one i am afraid i will lose both. what did i do to have to end up where i am today? i must be being punished for being me. dragonfly
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I feel SO much the same way. I guess no one will save us but ourselves. We have to get back those dreams and hopes and goals and feel alive again no matter how hard the struggle to do it. I try it every day and every day that I fail, I wake up trying again. Keep hoping and dreaming, cause if you give up on that, then there really is nothing left. You and I are two extraordinary people on this planet and it would be a shame not to leave a positive mark. You can do it and so can I....:)