Pessimist: one who, when he has the choice of two evils, chooses both. that seems to be me. seems like i cant claw my way out sometimes no matter how much i try. life just keeps throwing more shit and more tests at me and to be honest i am fucking tired of all this. do i have a choice, sure probably, i just cant find it yet. 6 fucking months and at this moment i wish i had a fucking drink. i'm tired, i'm depressed and i just dont give a shit right now. i want out of all this bullshit.  i never asked for all this.