well i am trying to do a whole new change.  i am having such up and down days i hate it.  i have no energy at all and i am so tired still.   its day 80 so why the hell am i not feeling better than this by now?   i feel like i am trying so hard and doing the one day at a time and talking to a "higher power".  i am so frustrated. but on a lighter note as i mentioned its day 80.  i WILL make it to day 90, my first goal. always dragonfly