why is it i can have a great day and it has to come crashing down? how is it i have been naive and gullable to trust some people i have met on the internet only to have my whole world changed and end up hurt and humiliated?  i am not a stupid woman and i would never let this kind of shit happen on a face to face in person meeting, with anyone.  why is it i keep saying certain friendships are over, that i have had enough bullshit and just go away but as soon as i think that is the case i am contacted and hurt all over again. not this time.  i cant do this anymore, the mental and emotional bullshit and definately i will not let it affect my sobriety like it always has in the past.  i'm fed up with people messing with my emotions and letting them dictate how i react.  no more rent free space in this girls head anymore.  ok i am feeling alittle better.  not much but some.  now off to the airport for the day and get my girl on the plane for italy.  wish it was me. here's to another day sober.  always dragonfly