i am realizing going into week two how fucking bored i am.  i dont know what to do with myself.  why is it when i was drunk i didnt feel this way?  i am so damn tired and have no ambition to do anything but sit here at my computer and keep my mind occupied with anything other than booze.  i am starting to see in myself how angry i am at things or certain people.  i realize that i dont or wasnt dealing with my feelings or anger but instead drinking to hide.  i am rambling here just saying what i think i feel.  my mind still feels somewhat clouded and i am so damn tired i just want to get past this so i can get control of my life again.  whatever maybe i can write more later