the emptiness and loneliness in my black heart and the depth of my soul can not be replaced with mere mortals this space i hold open is lost to only one and it slowly dies with each passing moment knowing it will remain forever empty my body aches as it is abused by my own convictions and the penatly will be deliberate as i drown myself in drunken numbness the grief and guilt are carried with me always set free only in my intoxication and my disgraceful destruction i want to hide be set free from this painful burden i lay down and surrender i am consumed