some things never change.  you know you trust people in your life and accept them unconditionally hell even falling in love with them only to find out they dont accept you with your disease.  its an eye opener.  to say the least.  what a person you love turns their back on you becuase you do drink it only pushes to want to drink more.   hell maybe that is their intention ihave no idea.  unconditional love seems to come with an awful lot of conditions. well no more for me.  fuck all this right.  this i who i am at this moment and like any disease tehre are ups and downs.  why do people pick and choose when to be in your life depending on those times when in reality it may be the downs when you need them the most.   fuck it.