well i am on day 7.  sigh.  i actually am not really sure how i feel.  the withdrawal symptoms are becoming less but the cravings are still there.  i'm kind of kicking myself for putting myself in this position in the first place.  i know i know i cant change what happened just learn from it.  i feel like i am dealing with alot yet my issues should be simpler than they are or perhaps i am making them i dont know.really i feel nothing.  kind of empty today.  maybe just tired i dont know.  like i dont care.  i know i'm not going to drink i just feel the cravings.  funny thing is even though i am craving alcohol i dont want to drink.  how odd is that?i dont even know if i am making sense right now i am kind of rambling.  i feel i am trying to deal with two major seperate issues in my life at the same time and each one is giving me grief.  i suppose in some respects each one is an addiction seperate from each other and yet i am dealing with both at the same damn time.  maybe that is what the difficult thing is.  i have no idea.  like i said just tired maybe.  i have been accused of thinking to much and that gets me in trouble lol.  perhaps that is what i am doing now.  over thinking and making my problems worse than they need to be.  atleast i can vent here.  that helps a bit. whatever.  tomorrows a new day and hopefully another sober one.