day 22.  i feel physically pretty good other than dead tired in the afternoons and headaches but i have read that will go away the longer i am sober.  i leave for my holidays on saturday and i am trying to get myself psyched and in a right mindset so that i can face it without alchohol.  this will be a first in i cant tell you how many years.  thing is a week ago i didnt think i could do it.  now i think its possible.  i'm going to try my damnest i can tell you because this not being hungover crap is one sweet thing in the mornings.  not to mention actually remembering what i did the night before and not panicking wondering.  i'm still a little worried because i was 2 months sober starting jan 1 of this year and fell off the wagon.  i cant even remember what triggered it but it happened and the drinking was worse this time than before.  what scares me is the fact that if it happens again it will be even heavier drinking and worse again.  i dont want that. i cant have that.  anyway one day at a time and heres to another day sober.alwaysdragonfly