Well i have made it to day 15, god only knows how.  i feel so angry at everything and everyone. i dont mean to be or really have reason to be so i am frustrated.  i am still craving alcohol at times, especially at night and i am dreading my holidays for the first time.  i know minute my minute, day by day stop thinking ahead, i just cant help it i'm feeling very depressed today.  i miss alot of people there were in my life.  thats it for now.  more later perhaps