well today is day 8!!!!!!!! yeah me.  i am actually feeling physically better.  funny i think i have been sad for so long i am now afraid to be happy.  just like being afraid to be sober i guess but one day at a time and one issue at a time.  i think it all goes hand in hand and one of these days everything it will all click again.  today i set goals and realistic ones.  its time for me.