i'm actually bored to tears today.  it raining and miserable out so getting out and about is not really an option.  where i would normally sitting around on a sat afternoon like this we may end up having a drink or 2 or 10 lol so i am lost at what to do with myself.  the things i used to do that i enjoyed i cant seem to push myself to start.  i'm hoping this will change in time but i am still feeling somewhat un inspired or without motivation.  is this a normal feeling?  its day 5 and i do feel better than day 1.  how could i not?  i just want it all to stop and be me again.  or who i thought i was.  i still feel so tired.  anyway worst of all i feel like i am whining and that is not my intention.  im rambling but i suppose thats what journals are for.