well i suppose if i am to choose a goal it is to first keep busy.  busy minds takes your thougths away from drinking (i hope) lol.  also to make it through another day and with the weekend coming up that is already on my mind.  i can feel it inside if that makes any sense at all.  that anticipation yet the fear and helplessness.  in my head i am telling myself you can do this.  its whether my body can handle it or not and take over my thoughts.  i am trying.  i am thankful i found this place.  i have met some people who encourage me and talk with the same issues who understand and that is huge.  i'm not alone.  it just feels like it sometimes in the battle.  thanks all.  i am trying......