Im struggling to do my best without meds and  just a learners perrmit no money and bills stressing over a ton of shit i havent worked in over a year i barely eat sleep or do anything other than smoke pot cigarettes and drink very few fluids  im down to 134 pounds and have no idea what im going to do right now my dad just quit his job this week and we are only down to one usable car during the day when my mom and sister are at work. My brother has been out of work too im afraid to even speak sometimes because all ive been doing is delivering on empty promises and havent been able to keep any of them.my health is going to shit and so is my relationship with my family and i have no idea how to manage telling my family that i havent followed up on anything at all in the last 4 or so months. I have been making stupid  decisions since i was 18 with drugs and have fucked up numerous jobs due to situations i put myself in over the years and i know its time for me to shape up and deal with life and get my shit together finally so i can start paying back my family for every dumbass decision i made in the last 6 years that ive cost em majorly over