Im at a loss for words at times it seems I just wish I knew why I was even born at all.been out of my meds for 5 days and I can feel my thoughts racing again a little bit here and there not too bad if I distract myself with something I'm getting afraid of what might happen if I'm off of my lamictal any longer my moods are ok for now.no anger no depression for now.kind of learned to have to avoid everything that triggered me and unfortunately its been my family and it's been that way for most of the year. I haven't gotten along with my brother in a long time. I feel like a piece of shit for not being able to support myself because of meds.depression and anxiety issues I'm tired of feeling like meds are the only option I want and have wanted even before I ran out to get micro nutrients.still haven't heard from the lawyers about my risperdal case. fuckin dicks they said they would call in 2 weeks about it that was in October