My Life is like an ocean a constant change of mixed motions crazy thoughts actions and notions.drowning in my own self loathing  just constantly wishing struggling  and hoping.feeling rewired and then re-broken. Tired of tearing my walls down to just get my heart ripped wide open. My guard is going back up the doors are closing. I'm done disclosing my thoughts and feelings and exposing faults as a human being .tired of being too revealing so I'm constantly concealing 
struggling to trust  tired of gettin tossed so im taking the pain and cut off the loss. Still I shake off the dust and pick myself back up.