bad day

I was doing a little better for awhile but today I am a train wreck....i am in the middle of a 12 hour shift today I just want it to be over.  I am so very sad right now I feel that i am sinking into a very deep depression.  I think it may be just missing my Dad so much and tons of other stress I am dealing with.  I have spent the  last 2 hours trying not to burst into tears.  I think i will write a journal entry venting about everything tomorrow but right now I just have to try to get through this day.  I am sick too some stupid virus.  and I am very angry also....mostly at coworkers who are worthless....yesterday i pulled my hamstring bad because I was lifting a patient with people who dont know how to lift or comunicate.  so now i have all that pain.  I have been doing a boot camp exercise program 3 days a week and started to feel better physically, i am much stronger and losing pounds and inches...but i feel like i just cant take anymore now since this injury yesterday i dont think i will be able to do a good workout tomorrow.  I only have 2 more weeks of the other job that i love than that will be gone because of changes with the program.  then the estate stuff to deal with and all that i have discussed today is just the tip of the iceburg.  i slowed my sch with my city job for november and i might for december too.  I like taking care of the people in the city alot, i care about them even if it is sad sometimes.  I just hate all the rest of the political crap and working with stupid coworkers.  and the good ones tend to be arrogant and hard to get along with i just dont have energy for any of this.  I just need to get through this day without being angry! and without crying!  if i just keep breathing minute by minute it will go by.