This is so horrible....last night after i started to freak out for a couple hours on end here at work i had to go home because i couldnt see straight and i was starting to throw up so i went home and slept for a couple hours and got called back into work did a run then my wife cooked a very good dinner with a nice dessert....it was very thoughtful of her,she had the night off for once but still all i could do was focus on all the bad in my life instead of the good and totally shut her out and just went to bed after eating. When i woke up this morning i felt like i had drank an entire case last night because i felt majorly hung over and actually still do. i cant focus and im starting to lose it all over again today.....How can i move on and be a new me if all i can do is feel like shit everyday and just wait for death to grab me up and take me away?