Hmm

Ok so after a random chat with a friend here on DS im feeling better ( Not good ) during the talk i had two massive panic attacks and damn near passed out from them. You know who you are and thank you so very very very much for caring.....and staying with me through the whole ordeal
Thursday i went into see my therapist and after i let him read my ohysical journal and told him what the other center had said he jumped down there throats and got me an appointment with a psyc doc on june 7th. i know thats a ways out but im happy that i atleast have an appointment and hopefully we can do something that will start me on a road to a somewhat upbeat life change.
Im really trying...i am but its just ssoooo hard and its getting harder everyday but im starting to see through the fog and realizing that i HAVE to fight if i want to be happy or atleast stable.