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So heres todays entry
Today when i woke up i felt like the usual - Sad,upset,and just mad at everything but then i got to work and was actually happy that i had a detroit pick-up so i basically hit the road right off the bat and i was excited to do so, The whole trip was pretty enjoyable i didnt cry i didnt get mad i didnt get depressed then i picked up the client and we were on our way back to town and it was an enjoyable talk with him.
BUT as soon as we hit town i felt this sensation come over me that i havent felt since before my back surgery....my knees were shaking my head was and still is spinning and i felt scared as all i could do was stare at the road straight ahead in a tunnel, Im pretty sure that i had a panic attack it subsided as soon as we got back to the center though so i was glad about that and now ever since that happened today i have been in that hole all over again called depression and i still cant do anything to help myself to feel better today,This is just horrible.
Today when i woke up i felt like the usual - Sad,upset,and just mad at everything but then i got to work and was actually happy that i had a detroit pick-up so i basically hit the road right off the bat and i was excited to do so, The whole trip was pretty enjoyable i didnt cry i didnt get mad i didnt get depressed then i picked up the client and we were on our way back to town and it was an enjoyable talk with him.
BUT as soon as we hit town i felt this sensation come over me that i havent felt since before my back surgery....my knees were shaking my head was and still is spinning and i felt scared as all i could do was stare at the road straight ahead in a tunnel, Im pretty sure that i had a panic attack it subsided as soon as we got back to the center though so i was glad about that and now ever since that happened today i have been in that hole all over again called depression and i still cant do anything to help myself to feel better today,This is just horrible.
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Sounded like a panic attack love. Sorry u had to go through that. You are strong tho , we just have to find that part of you Sean , raise him back up and get the ight back into to come out of this funk! Have faith
sorry to hear about the panic attack, they are no fun. Back surgery is scary, and you\'ve survived that. You are stronger then you know. You can beat this!
Karen