God i've been trying to work on healing myself and dealing with emotions....it just makes me feel so vulnerable which in turn makes me just feel sad..... I hate being left alone with my thoughts they always turn bad....i use music to distract me.....i just wish i felt more comfortable with myself being alone......so idk, i'm just trying to work on myself for a bit....thanks to all those on here for the support and allowing me to vent.....i truly appreciate it.