Feeling much, much better today! I cried and cried and cried yesterday. I got in my car and shouted on the top of my lungs like an animal! . I let out months of pent up emotions. It felt great! 

Sometime you have to let it all out.

I am not angry at him and wish him well. Holding on to anger only hurts the one who is angry. While I don't want to be any part of his life, I wouldn't want harm to come to him no matter what I yelled in the car yesterday. I hope God forgives me. 

I'd rather focus on happy hopes and dreams...New life and new friends...Pleasant pictures in my mind that will become my reality some day soon. Miracles can happen if you only hang onto hope that someday they will.

Lots of Love and hugs!